Hopes and dreams

This is the hopeful time of month.  I tested this morning because I had an appointment to give blood and wanted to make sure I could do so safely.  The results were negative, but there's still that thought kicking around in the back of my mind that maybe it's too early to test and if I test again in a few days it'll be positive.  We'll see.  I'm due to start my period tomorrow, so hopefully I'll know one way or another by then.  Of course, I'm thinking my cycle could be running a bit long, so I could be in for a few days of wondering.  I keep having dreams that I had a baby but hadn't been allowed to see it in days and I'm wondering around a big hospital trying to fill out the right paperwork so they'll give me my baby.  Very strange.