???

So, now I'm really confused. I had light spotting yesterday and figured it
was the start of my period and that when I woke up this morning, it would be
obvious, but today is still just light spotting. I took another pregnancy
test yesterday and it was negative, so I keep thinking that this must be my
period, but it's two days early (even though I haven't been off of birth
control for long enough to really know for sure my cycle length, but 26 days
seems a bit short). And there's no real flow. Just spotting. I have heard
that it can take up to a week after a missed period for a pregnancy test to
return a positive result. Hmmm. I guess if I don't have a normal flow by
tomorrow morning, I'll test properly with one of my "good" tests with a
first morning urine. When I tested last night, it was with one of my cheap
tests (that I don't really know what the sensitivity is on it) and it was
late in the day, so maybe the HCG just hadn't had enough time to build up in
my bladder to a concentration that is sufficient. Still, I figured that
there would at least be a faint line on the test. Perhaps I'm just being
paranoid and my cycles haven't quite regulated after coming off of birth
control and that's all this is. The only thing that really tips me off that
it could really, truly be implantation bleeding is that when I first noticed
it, it was very faint and light pink, signifying "new" blood. Now, a day
later, it's a bit more apparent and has turn brownish. Makes me really
wonder. Wouldn't it be fantastic to have gotten pregnant after our first
month of trying?! I wish I could know right now, but I guess there's
nothing really to do but wait and see if this spotting turns into a real
flow and wait to try testing again.

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