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We just made it back from our trip.  I lost my passport and we had to spend
four extra (and expensive) days in France.  It was a fiasco and I'm only
remembering the negative things about the trip right now, so I won't go into
any of that except to say that it'll take us a bit to get back on track,
financially, and that I missed my appointment with the midwife and will have
to reschedule.  I should do it quickly, too, because I'm on my last two
weeks of birth control and will need to get a new scrip written pronto if we
don't want to have to use alternative means of contraception.

I started a high yield savings account for baby-related expenses today
because I just don't want my husband's indecision to derail my preparedness.
So far, I've just factored the costs of copays for prenatal care and our
portion of the delivery fees not covered by insurance...so nothing fun like
decorating the nursery or anything like that.  We'll have to discuss whether
or not to begin contributing to it or not, but I'd like to pitch $50 or so
into it every couple of weeks just to help myself feel like I'm getting
closer to my goal.

Also, I'm almost out of prenatal vitamins and need to stop and buy some more
but am just so discouraged about the whole thing that I'm feeling like it
doesn't matter if I take them or not at this point.

We met some random guy from Puerto Rico on a plane on our way home and he
was chatting up my husband and he asked, out of the blue, if we had any
children.  My husband answered "not yet" and the guy shot back with an
exuberant "what are you waiting for?"  I just silently pointed the finger at
my husband and continued reading.  I, for one, have no idea what we're
waiting for.  Now seems like a fine time to start trying.  But
unfortunately, the decision doesn't lie solely with me.